Gift of self
So that the need to gaze on God may not be mere poetry or sentiment, it must be accompanied by the decision to give all to God, to make the complete gift of self. The prophet understands that unless he has given everything to God, he cannot stand in God’s presence and demand of God that He give Himself. The prophet is constantly in search of God and continually surrendered to His action within and outside of him.
He gives himself up, and that is his whole occupation.
It is for God to dispose of him, to detain him in solitude or to send him anywhere. He plunges in God, eyes closed, in surrender to the Almighty, to the love of God. It is truly in the dark that one must look for God’s design, for His thoughts are above human thoughts, as heaven, earth. The gift of self must seek its calling in mystery and surrender to the mystery which hides and guards them jealously, awaiting the hour for accomplishment. Thus, the gift of self must be indeterminate in order for the person not to go astray in purely human projects, but to be at one with the divine reality and truth.
Such a gift, with no reservations, is not an attempt at communion with the void, but an effective means to the fulfilment of the divine volitions which are certain but unknown to us at the moment. An incomparable benefit is derived from the unlimited gift that has become habitual. It surrenders the soul to the action of the Holy Spirit. In the darkness of faith where it holds the soul, it remains alert to the least manifestation of the divine will. It refines the spiritual senses, making them delicately attuned to the sweet anointing of the Holy Spirit and the most subtle of His motions.
Obviously, the soul walks with all its defects, its bad tendencies and the sins of its past life, but none of this constitutes obstacles to make the leap to God. In casting oneself into that darkness by the gift of self, one falls necessarily into the arms of Divine Mercy.